The Game

Whew! It is like you're in the finals of a basketball game - facing giants and able players. The score is 79 - 78. In only 10 seconds, the game will end. You have the ball and you're at the other end of the court. One shot could change everything. One shot. Long shot. No miss. Accurate and Precise.

The crowd, composed of different people, cheered their hearts out. Some of them support you. But, most of them don't.

I am in the last term/s in my college life. And the result was not awesome. I got 1.81. It's not low but relatively not high. For a person who aspires for a cum laude status, that really does not help. It aggravates the situation. Moreover, it leads me to an end-of-the-cliff scenario.

It is just between hanging on and falling. Though it is more of falling, I still have this slim chance of getting it. I have to get 1.00 in my succeeding subjects. The idea is not impossible. But, the question of attainability is such a big consideration.

Let's see what are these subjects. OJT, Planning and Correl. In planning, 1.00 is attainable. By effort, our professor promised he could give us that grade. In Correl, it is attainable however, it requires hardwork. I might lose my focus upon this undertaking. In OJT, 1.00 might be a "blue moon" that rarely occurs.

Lately, I have been thinking of what this wants to teach me. I know that everything is meant to happen because life and ultimately, our Lord, have something to tell us.

It might have been slow down. It is not my plan for you. It might have been push harder. I'll give it to you but you have to struggle. It might have been stop. CE is not for you.

The first might be true. Life is not all about being a cum laude or having honors. Though it may mean something, it is not the whole thing.

The second might be the best. I have experienced a lot. Sleep deprivation. Brain damaging exams. And others. I don't have to give up. God is good.

But, the last is the saddest of them all. It may be true. And, for the moment, it is what I see. I have pushed myself to be one. And, I, again, become to be skeptic of these things. I have loved my lineage. But, I don't know what "the plan" is all about.

I don't want to lose this game. I don't want to upset the people who supported me since the beginning. I don't want to be the runner up. I don't want to commit any last minute mistakes. I have to compose myself for the last long shot of my "college" game.

But, whatever happens in this game, I have to believe that there is a life after everything.

THINGS THINGS THINGS

Well, dahil wala akong magawa andami kong naiisip. Mostly, tungkol sa sarili ko. tungkol sa mga gusto kong gawin.

gusto kong kumanta.
gusto kong sumayaw.
gusto kong kumuha ng litrato.
gusto kong magsulat ng nobela.
gusto kong matuto ng mga bagay bagay.

i guess time really is fast. i don't want to have a job yet. i don't want to review for board. i want to enjoy life. i want to know myself better. XD