The Game

Whew! It is like you're in the finals of a basketball game - facing giants and able players. The score is 79 - 78. In only 10 seconds, the game will end. You have the ball and you're at the other end of the court. One shot could change everything. One shot. Long shot. No miss. Accurate and Precise.

The crowd, composed of different people, cheered their hearts out. Some of them support you. But, most of them don't.

I am in the last term/s in my college life. And the result was not awesome. I got 1.81. It's not low but relatively not high. For a person who aspires for a cum laude status, that really does not help. It aggravates the situation. Moreover, it leads me to an end-of-the-cliff scenario.

It is just between hanging on and falling. Though it is more of falling, I still have this slim chance of getting it. I have to get 1.00 in my succeeding subjects. The idea is not impossible. But, the question of attainability is such a big consideration.

Let's see what are these subjects. OJT, Planning and Correl. In planning, 1.00 is attainable. By effort, our professor promised he could give us that grade. In Correl, it is attainable however, it requires hardwork. I might lose my focus upon this undertaking. In OJT, 1.00 might be a "blue moon" that rarely occurs.

Lately, I have been thinking of what this wants to teach me. I know that everything is meant to happen because life and ultimately, our Lord, have something to tell us.

It might have been slow down. It is not my plan for you. It might have been push harder. I'll give it to you but you have to struggle. It might have been stop. CE is not for you.

The first might be true. Life is not all about being a cum laude or having honors. Though it may mean something, it is not the whole thing.

The second might be the best. I have experienced a lot. Sleep deprivation. Brain damaging exams. And others. I don't have to give up. God is good.

But, the last is the saddest of them all. It may be true. And, for the moment, it is what I see. I have pushed myself to be one. And, I, again, become to be skeptic of these things. I have loved my lineage. But, I don't know what "the plan" is all about.

I don't want to lose this game. I don't want to upset the people who supported me since the beginning. I don't want to be the runner up. I don't want to commit any last minute mistakes. I have to compose myself for the last long shot of my "college" game.

But, whatever happens in this game, I have to believe that there is a life after everything.

THINGS THINGS THINGS

Well, dahil wala akong magawa andami kong naiisip. Mostly, tungkol sa sarili ko. tungkol sa mga gusto kong gawin.

gusto kong kumanta.
gusto kong sumayaw.
gusto kong kumuha ng litrato.
gusto kong magsulat ng nobela.
gusto kong matuto ng mga bagay bagay.

i guess time really is fast. i don't want to have a job yet. i don't want to review for board. i want to enjoy life. i want to know myself better. XD

Birthday Bash

Grabeng Birthday bashes yun. HAHAHAHHAHA

Actually, combined. Ayun. Happy Birthday Anthony Ortego (23) and Sean Baniqued (26)!

Define BUSOG.

2 Monster Deal. Grabe. e 14 lang naman kami. WHEW!

Missing You

Definitely, I miss blogging. I mean it's not just the multiply thing.

I guess I have to regroup my social networks.

I have to include this blog again. Okay.

Facebook - anything I want people to know and sometimes to like. Sometimes, if I want to spread a news or what. Also, Facebook might help when I stalk someone. Moreover, it is for like a little posts and for the comment things.

Twitter - for anything more personal that I do not want everybody to see and everybody to know. It is like a mini-diary however it has become a big chat box for my friends.

Multiply - for my short stories. Articles. Essay. Etc. Songs maybe :)

Plurk - the super juiciest chikas on earth about me but, I froze it already.

Tumblr - for picture stuffs. :)

Blogspot - for ideas I want the world to know

It's my responsibility

I guess this becomes an adage since its official entrance to the airwaves through the movie Spiderman. "With great power comes great responsibility."

The word responsibility haunts me even before I fully understand its meaning.

For any group works I have been through, I always make it a point that I have done a part if not all of it. Some people even complained that I must not do all the tasks. But, I just can't. I just can't let anyone ruin my grade. Moreover, I just can't see anyone fail within my expectations.

However, my doings are taking its toll to me. For this group works, I think I have grabbed the works I have not just been doing by myself. But, I have to admit I have been lazy at times.

I just realize that for two works involving a group and individual ones, I make sure that I finished first for the group than myself. I believe that by doing my own may affect anybody. And, I don't want anybody to fall because of me.

Whether my responsibility or not, I guess I have to change my ways. Not a complete turn around. But, I have to balance this.

Responsibility.

Such a huge word.

More More More

It was such a long long long long time.

Nagsimula ako sa blog na to wala pang college but now, malapit nang matapos. Yay!

I hope to post more :)

library work!!!

seems obvious naman na nasa library ako dahil sa quote and unquote library work.. hahaha..

wala naman masyadong importante na mangyayari ngayon sa araw na ito dahil una sa lahat, first hahahaha.. lib work lang daw sa bio.. at walang klase sa iba.. bwahahahaha.. :p

pero ano ba ang sense ng blog post na ito.. i think you think whatever thinking patterns.. :p wala talaga e.. it's unimportant..

eto na lang.. ginawa kong tanong sa phy11l..

"if you and i were best friends, i killed the cat and the cat and the dog were best friends, who killed the dog??"